I’m feeling awful – time to try something new.

I feel terrible – I think I have had a constant stomachache for the better part of a week, and now I’m doing things like nodding off at dinner.  I know it’s from the stress of everything going on, the weird events, the sounds, this ‘investigation’ I’m trapped in.  Wendy is blaming it on lack of sleep, and I have to admit, that is definitely getting to me lately – I feel so tired and drained.  I’m still not sleeping well, most nights only getting an hour or two uninterrupted before something wakes me.  Last night it was clapping – it sounded like someone clapping their hands somewhere downstairs.  I searched for the source of the sound for 30 minutes, then I sat in the living room with a camera at the ready, waiting for something to happen.  Nothing did, of course, but I still couldn’t really get back to sleep after that.  Wendy keeps pointing out all the things that sleep deprivation can cause, which actually includes things like disorientation, loss of mental focus, and even hallucinations.  Great – thanks Web MD.

Based on all this, we’re going to try something new tonight; Wendy just picked up some ‘gentle, natural sleep aids’ for me at Walgreen’s – a nice way to say ‘sleeping pills’.  I’ve never tried them before, but they’re supposed to be mild, so hopefully they’ll just help me get a good night’s sleep and I’ll feel better tomorrow.

I can’t stop thinking about my grandfather, either.  I keep wondering what he went through, what finally drove him over the edge, if anything.  All my memories of Grandpa Joe are of a strong, opinionated old Yankee who didn’t smile often, but when he did, he smiled with his whole body.  He always made time for us kids, he was always a positive influence;  he didn’t so much ‘play’ with his grandkids as trick us into learning valuable life lessons while thinking we were having fun-  He was great like that. I miss him now, a lot more than I ever thought I would – part of it has to do with whatever is going on, but part of it is that I finally feel like I’m getting to know him, and I regret not having done that a lot sooner…

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Just a normal guy with a lot of very abnormal stuff going on.

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